momento

Have you ever felt like this??? Recently I have had this feeling quite often. I feel like I am stuck at a point again. Like my life is a stair and I gotta get stuck somewhere and have to work my way up again and again. It never ends. At first reaching a new level, my life seems interesting. Everything is so fresh. New Challenges. Starting Off again!! Then, when I get stuck at somewhere too long or long enough to make me feel that it's time to move on. Moving on is not easy as I blow. I mean I gotta to do something extra, unsual stuff that would impact on my being. At this moment I wondered if I could ever want to be in a lower step as I am right now. As if I would be glad. And I just know that I would be happy though ... for a while and then feel uncomfortable with the situation and I wouldn't be able to stand it anymore and finally I would push myself out of that position.
Now I'm on a step for quite some time. It might not be a right time to go up or would it be better if went the otheway on sidewalks. Working my way, building up something that I don't know that would exist or that would better my position.
How would I know this is it ? This is the right moment to be climbing up there. Who knows if I am ready or not. Some time we aren't prepared to hit a ceiling, but the ceiling just gets down right on our head.

Which way?

Recently, I've gotta make a "vital"decision. Basically, there are 3-4 choices that I can go. One way is a long way with some interesting stuff I would be learning, but probably I might get bored and too tired of this journey. Another choice is "cut and dry." just as it is, quick. But it might not be a most efficient way. I pretty much know that at the first place of embarking on this way, I would be happy, fun and fullfilled. Somehow in the future ,not knowing how far after it has begun, I would be sick of that life and that crappy haunting boring fucking retard life. The third choice is to start a short journey, just like a quick trip and would benefit my life all that much. This is the choice I've had in mind. But pretty hard to work on it also since there are a lot of tasks I have to overcome. I am so excited of this coming future. :) Just pretty fucking tired of thinkinh thoroughly of which way I should be going since we never know what is going to happen in the rest of our choices. If only we could seperate our life into three and make the most out of it and pick the best, ultimately best one.

A brain cleaner :P

Wouldn’t it be great if we could choose what memories we wanted to keep or to be deleted? I believe that everyone has some sort of bitter experiences needed to forget or be buried deep down as deep as the Earth would allow. Many times I see something or hear some story that remind me of unforgettable incident, not in a good sense, an alternative or at least my first and last thing I would do is to be alone, cheer myself up the a point that no one would catch me. But only if we could turn back time or have a magic pill or a thumb drive that could plug in directly to put a part of our brain that stores all memories. We could just transfer those memories or trash them. I was just daydreaming. Can we just erase bad memories as if double clicking a mouse? Isn’t it great!! Please some crazy scientist … please invent this device or come up with something that we could rely on in eliminating unnecessary memories.