Released

I have thought about this issue many times. Well, when we create constraints or boundaries of one's ability to meet or choose what is suitable for oneself. Such a weird situation isn't it. I have observed this situation when I'm abroad. I think because there are not many Thai students in my school, they tend to form a "group." That's not bizarre. But what strange is that ... many may perceive it as a normal situation. To me it's such an aberration. It's so ridiculous that I as a third person that being coerced to listen to what irratable stories of those persons. And it's keep happening again and again. Some time I just can't put up with these. Well, outside it seems as if I was so into it ... I was consciously listening to what they were telling although it may have been the fourth or fifth time I heard that story.
Why friends .. well let me deifine a word " friend." To me, a friend is person that I can spend my time with without being annoyed or if there is, that's because I choose to be in that situation to ease my friend or for whatever reason is. Basically, my definition is so so simple. But here because of many factors. There is a force that pushes and pushes and pushes some body or even me some times to be in an unpleasant situation that we have no choice. Why are they still together, spending time together despite expressing or even cursing the other persons secretly ... to me. How can one be so loquacious to a point that I would want to run away or to be a deaf at the moment. I am desperate to finding a new nest, but who knows it would be better or even worse. We never knows until it has arrived.