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PS : Please do not read, this journal is somewhat silly .. and you may not be able get something from it. so just skip .. I'm just bored.

Some time, we expect to do a lot of things in any single day, somehow no matter how far we are or whatever, we just find that we still at the exact same place we started. Probably, I didn't recognize how far I was , just let day and night pass day by day, ... what do I need of being alive? I still have no idea ... since high school, I have decided my path of life on my own ... never did my parents force me to do so. it's hard though. It's hard that I have to think what am I gonna do next. After this, what am I gonna be? I feel like I am getting lost in my thought ... if human beings did't have to think, it would be bored ... just like a system everything goes toward the rules. I still recall one thing that one of my close friend said to me "we know each other for departing." It's true. Who knows that in one's life, how many people have we met and how many people have we left behind or are surpassed by a little tiny piece of new memories ... they are pressed and one day we just can't unearth them. Relationship, somehow fake, is something weird, to me. For someone, it lasts forever ... in turn, to someone, it is just one night stand ... we just passed by. Being alone, .... do I really get used to it? ........ since when have I called a person friend? Does anybody has the line? Weird! Friends sometimes just cross the border that normally we can't let someone invade to. Friends... are they really like wine? the older, the better. it's sort of something that depends... I just wanna express my feeling without not yelling .. writing seems to be somewhat an alternative. ........................ why? ... have you ever thought when you were studying some social stuff saying that Human beings are social animals .. such this such that .... ..... I don't know ..... To be climbing or falling, some time we can just make consideratuins despite its effect affecting only us.