Thoroughly settled

Now I'm doing very well. I am being with my life in New York City. Everything is so interesting. Why do I just realize that? Maybe I paid much attention to the test so that I couldn't keep an eye off it.

Every Friday I usually go to METS. It is an excllent place. I could spend my whole day walking there. Last week, I saw one of paintings of Renuer there. It is really fascinating. I had stood up there for almost an hour until my friend came to see me. The name of the painting is "The Ice." On the canvas, Reneur used white color to make an ambigous scenery. There are trees and a lake concealed by fog that Reneur created it. All white, grey and light blue.

I tried to buy a postcard of that painting. Unfortuntely, it was sold out. T-T

How often should we call back home?

since I came here, I have talked with my mum for 3 times. One of those was failed because of the bad signal. I was thinking about "Why don't they call me?" The one who keep calling is me, but why? It is probably that they are busy or they feel nothing of lacking of my being. ? ? ? ? ?

Feel free

Does anyone feel like this? When you already reached a destination that you had planned to do, you will feel so ... blank. I mean now I took both test and all I can do is waiting for the result. And I don't know what I should do in every single day. I might be bored with New York or I may be too nervous to do anything, except keeping waiting for the response from the university. I should go museums or at least just walk on the street.

Yesterday, I just got all of OST of 2046. It's really cool. Unbelieveable. Wong Ka Wai always choose perfect songs to fit with his films. "Adagio" I like this one very much. My friend, who is strucking in Illinois hahaha, suggested this song to me.
Its sound is so vague, but neat. When i was listening to this song I thought about someone who is taking the risk of love despite perceiveng that more than 80% of that chance would not succeed. I should have learned playing violin when I was in high school. - -"

The rising of the sun

Every moring, sunlight always filter through the window and wake me up. Now I am think about lowering the curtain to shade it. I have done it once and that day I slept until 2pm. Anyway, with a second thought, I shoudn't change anything if I still want to do somthing in the moring.

Her! Tomorrow is the day that I have the GMAT test. I am being nervous. My feeling is not like when I was taking the TOEFL test. This is my first time for GMAT. Why studying in USA is so complicated? Why do they have to require both GMAT and TOEFL? .. Well, sometimes I wonder why I am here instead of England. Today, I have read some lessons. They might be useless if I keep reading without taking a rest.

Some might usually say "Wish me luck." :) <<< I never believe in luck hahaha, I believe in myself.
Well,... I might believe in luck. But before hoping luck to help us, we should do the best to reach our destination. Then, it depends on luck.

Grunchhh

Again, last night I hardly slept. Somebody called me at 2.00a.m. And then that guy complained about a situation in her house. Whatever, I was so sleepy that I just kept saying "It's gonna be okay." 30 minutes later, I was completely awake. It was really hard to make myself ready for sleeping again. ZZzzz

Before I went to a library, I had received a mail from ETS. It was my TOEFL score,also my last chance. I don't want to fly back to Bangkok to have the old generation test because they're gonna change it to iBT, much more difficult, on 25th September 05. I hoped my writing score getting better while I was opening that letter. Well, It's better. The total score is 253. I'm glad that finally I passed it. One more to go, GMAT. I was so surprised when I had read my recent passage. There was "GMAT" in every passage that I had written. I might be concerned about
GMAT badly.

Anyhow, 2 more days left, Wednesday is the appointment date.

lament

Today I felt so lonely like I was in a world that no one knew me. It was like I didn't exist. I was a nobody. However, that moment was thoroughly eradicated by another thought that "Don't forget GMAT." After my mind was settled, I started reading GMAT. Once again, I was always sleepy when I was starting doing something useful. Anyway, I keep reading it until I unintentionally glanced at a girl. She must have been a korean because I eavesdropped her conversation with her friends. 10 minutes later, there was a guy coming to sit next to her. With that touch, he must have been her boyfriend or at least a guy who can easily coax her to do "it." Whatever. So I stopped paying attention to that couple and re-started reading again. I absently saw my book while my head was thinking about "What are my friends doing?" We haven't talked for a few months. Sometimes, I miss night life in Bangkok, a football match, a party and so on. If I could I would fly back to Thailand for a few weeks to savor that feeling again. Homesick is conquering me. However, is that call homesick? I rarely miss my home. Should I have used another word instead of homesick?

Anyway, I had better go on my reading.

What a morning!

Last night, I did kill a mouse trapped in my room. I feel so terrible. And today morning when I was eating my breakfast, my sister screammmmmmmed loudly. You guys might have guessed "We got another MOUSE." What 's wrong with this place? However, it's near my school. I was finding some reasons to offset my "exciting" home.

Anyhow, I finished reading critical reasoning. Luckily, my class has a fall break, so I can read Gmat all day and all night.

First draft

Recently, I have realized that I had better read Gmat instead of spending time hanging out everyday. Today, I went to the information sessions of Baruch College. There were many international students there, but I couldn't find any Thai student there. At the sessions, I chose attending marketing sessions;however, now I still hesitate to choose between marketing and finance. Should I select studying in a financial field because it is related to my work experience or switching to another field like marketing in an advertising field? So confused. Does anyone experience this before taking MBA?